Poetry.....


I hate my life, I should have known
That you'd love her, leave me,
Alone
Why I ever thought you'd love me
I, myself, will never know
Drowning in my tears of sorrow
I try not to let it show

I know it's not her fault you love her
But I can't hide my hate for her right now
I've lived in her shadow for as long as I remember
Alone, unloved, yet surviving, somehow

When she told me that you still loved her
I thought I'd die right there and then
The happiness in her voice,
A knife
Cutting through my soul, my skin

I didn't realize how much I loved you
The pain I felt was strong, disabling.
All I could see was the smile on her face
The anger, ripping, tearing, nauseating.

I know I won't stop loving you,
ever
No matter how hard I try
I don't know if I'll ever really
forgive her
I always feel a hate for her inside

Sitting here now, I don't know how to feel -
Sadness, Hatred, Despair
I'm not sure
Why does this always happen to me
This is a pain that no one deserves.

Lindsay Yurcaba